Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
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12:38 am
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This past weekend has been crazy...I haven't talked to Aaron all weekend and it hasn't been that bad....well not as bad as I thought it was going to be. Me and him got into it over some BS! he is so stupid he thought I went into his school e-mail to be nosey and I didn't someone forwarded his messaged from his e-mail too me. So I asked the girl who it said it was written from and she told me that she didn't write it so I thought that was the end of that. So then he wouldn't answer my phone calls or my Im's or anything. So I texted him and asked him if he was mad at me and he text me and was like that he was through with me. So we haven't talked since not textin or nothing he HATES me for no reason, he wouldn't even let me explain my side of the story but it is ok I really don't care anymore because I know I didn't do what he accused me of sooooooooooooooooooo..............
Well I have been trying to talk to someone about how I am feeling about him but I don't really know how to express my feelings to anyone anymore. Like I want Aaron to be my friend but I don't know how he is going to be that because I still have feelings for him I just don't want to be in another serious realationship with him or ANYONE at this moment in time. I think he thinks that I want a realationship with him but I don't I just want and need him as a friend right now, but he is too busy with other things and priorities right now...so he basically isn't anything to me right now. Well he really hasn't been much of a friend since about April of this year.
current mood:  okay
current music: Alicia Keys Diary
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Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
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6:15 pm - THE MARCH DOWN
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The march down was cool everything was trying to keep us from going but we made it anyway it record time from south city to UMSL in about 7 mins. lol my sister's boyfriend was definitely speeding like he had problems I had to tell him he was going 95 mph! When we got there we saw most of the first act which was Sigma Gamma Rho my sister Tiesha was up there clowing then Zeta Phi Beta got up there and rock the place they did a great job then Delta Sigma Theta, and Alpha Kappa Alpha did there thang which was cool. Then the men came on Phi Beta Sigma, Iota Phi Theta (or something like that) then them sexy men of Kappa Alpha Psi, then them Ice cold brothers of Alpha Phi Alpha came on they did the best! Then came the party and these silly lil girls wanting to fight me but it was cool I am too grown for immature females especially the ones that want to fight over boys! but I have to tell the lil girls I don't discriminate I give folks the biz!...lol let me quit talking shit! but I had a really nice time besides all the drama and all the set backs we had in getting there...I was so happy I go to see my play sister Cherish she was so cute with her lil outfit on that is my homey for real! but I am going to sign out peace!
current mood:  energetic
current music: Get Some Crunk in Your System
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Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
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2:25 pm - Hey
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Well the beginning of this week has been ok for me I really haven't done much but look for outfits to go to the March Down in so I can look real JAZZY *strike a pose* Well I guess I should explain what the March Down is it is a big Step Show and party for fraternities and Sororities so it is pretty HOT up here when that rolls around. So I am excited about that cuz I want some folks to hate on me *brush shoulders off*! but what else happen this week I saw my boyfriend my ex-boyfriend or something like that we don't know what the hell we are... we just love each other that is about all we know lol but it's cool! We have been together for about 3yrs and decided to take a break but we really haven't because we call each other EVERYDAY and we see each other still so I don't know what we are but I guess we are taking a break because we decided that we can go out with the opposite sex but in the end when we tell each other about it we still get mad I know we are NUTS! but its all out of LOVE! lol Well I will talk to LJ lata Buh BYE!
current mood:  cheerful
current music: Ex-Factor By: Lauryn Hill
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Thursday, July 15th, 2004
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10:17 pm - hey world
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I am so tired of the STL I am ready to go to college and get the hell away from here, but unfortunately I have one more year of High School which sucks ass...but I guess it will be ok because its my senior year! Some people make me sick I wish I wasn't so damn friendly hold up Im not *shruggs shoulders* oh well! I guess that is why I don't have many friends....I am so lonely sometime I guess I should be a lil nicer to people, but like I said people are stupid and when you're nice to people they just take advantage of you anyway so I guess there is really not a reason to be nice....I know whoever reads my journal probably thinks I am crazy don't think that I just have had some bad experiences with people.... but other than that I am really an ok person you ask my bestest friend in the world Joycelyn! (bella_notte) but I am signing off because nosy people are askin me what I am writing about so leave me a comment and I will write lata!
current mood:  aggravated
current music: No Problem (lil scrappy)
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
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1:08 am - ughhh
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I am so sad right now I need to talk to someone but I don't know how to express my feelings one day I hope I can before all of this stuff that I have inside explodes and becomes worse than it is now...Hopefully tomorrow I can get some of it off of my chest to this person that I have been trying to talk to for a while but have been putting it off because I am scared to express my feelings I guess I fear that I am going to hurt someone else or my self so pray for me if you believe in prayer please!
current mood:  depressed
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Friday, June 18th, 2004
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12:31 am - ok
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Today was an ok day...bored as fuck but an ok day! My friend Jocelyn ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) bella_notte came over today and I braided her hair which was cool because it gave me something to do for about 2 hours! If you live in St.Louis and can find Teddybear something to do halla at cha gal! because I can't find not a nan nothing to do! but since my day was so boring I really have nothing to talk about!
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